2 stories, so similiar and yet so different..

Some of you may know some may not, but, both my sister and I had premature babies, Emery was born at 29 weeks on Oct 30th 08 and Colten was born at 27 weeks on Dec 7th 09 just a little over a year apart.. Our stories are scary similiar and yet so different and thousands of miles away my sister and i shared a bond that no one could possibly understand. My sister and i have always been best friends...but tonight for the first time my sister and i compared and told our stories to eachother in full detail..the days leading up to birth and that crazy day , the day you realize ..I am having a baby, a premature baby...today. My sister recalls when she called me after hearing from my mom that i was in labor, she says i was in shock..i sounded so happy and not scared at all and not at all like myself..she describes me as being just completely out of it. She was crying to me and i remember that, i don't remember talking to her, but i remember being happy because i was scared, terrified that my family could sense my anguish and i knew there was nothing they could do they were thousands of miles away and couldn't be there in time.. My sister recalls coming to visit when Emery was in the nicu and felt horrible that she didn't go to the Nicu with us everytime ..she didn't then, because she didn't realize what i was feeling until she did too..
She cried and hugged me and said, i should have gone everytime.. I explained that it was alright, no one could ever know the emotions i was feeling..it's one of those things you really just can't understand till you in those shoes....

So me and my sister decided...we are going to write a book and try to get it published.. There are barely any stories about premature babies and not really any first hand stories.  So starting next week Teej and i will be writing out our stories starting with our pregnancies...the bedrest, the labor (1 vaginal and 1 c section) and the nicu stays emerys was 2 months and coltens was 4..  Maybe we can help people understand premature birth in a different way .. I don't care if our book is never published, but i hope that for sure one day Emery and Colten will read it and understand exactly why we believe they are our heroes.