I am asked this question alot in reference to different things. A lot of times they are referring to being a single mom and going to school. My answer is always the same, I have A LOT of support. Not just emotionally but even financially right now. Truthfully i hate relying on my parents for financial support, since i was 18 i have lived on my own and paid my own bills and now the roles are reversed and i feel like a teenager again. I am grateful, very grateful for it. They know that school is my main focus, and they support me and want me to do the best. Being a Mommy, student, and working was hard. I was exhausted, and i loved it, but i rarely saw Emery, and that killed me and they knew it.
But the other times I am asked "How do you do it?" they are talking about my relationship with Blaine, my fiance. I can't say its easy, because it definitely is not, but our love is easy. We both know long distance is hard, so we communicate more often. Even if we aren't talking on the phone we send eachother many texts through out the day just letting eachother know what the other is up to. For instance i sent him a text today just saying "I hope your day is going good, i love you" and he sent me back 3 pictures of a broken down tractor.... Thats just how we are, when we talk on the phone sometimes its for a brief few minutes and were trying to cram the whole day into one fast coversation because the other has something going on, and other times we talk for hours and hours on end about everything and yet nothing. Communication is key in a long distance relationship, heck it's key in any relationship, but especially a big deal in long distance. We talk about everything from minor details of the day that really don't matter to how many children we would like to have, and how far should they be spaced apart. When i see it's him calling on my phone, my heart races. Hearing his voice makes my day 100000x better...almost instantly. The other big thing is trust, I trust him completely and he trusts me.... thats all there is to it. When you love and care about someone this much, it's easy.
From the moment i meant Blaine, there was something about him. Our first few times hanging out was just long talks about our lives, where we grew up, what we did, our families... It was easy to fall in love with him, and he knew it. I think he knew i was in love with him before i knew. Thats how it's always been though, he knows me better then i know myself. When i tell him a story i've told him 3x before, he doesn't cut me off he just laughs when i'm done and says, "babe, i've heard that story 4x now" and as i am prefusely apologizing for my shortcomings i hear him smile and say, that's why i love you. Being far away from him sucks, i dream pretty much everynight of coming home from school and seeing his truck parked out my house and then having one of those made for tv movie moments where both people just go running to eachother then magically it's raining and there kissing in the rain.... yea....i seriously dream about that. I'm really blessed, God knew what he was doing with my life, i told Blaine the other night that i feel like God stepped in when we were probably both about 16 and said...these two have to meet. How can i make it happen? ....and everything was lined up. Slightly unorthodox, yet i still feel that God had his hand in the mix. We found eachother, and he saved me.
I think the next time someone asks me "how do you do it?" i might just respond... How could i not?
